Damn my friend broke edge tonight :/ after 6 years. I guess it its what it is. She’s still vegan though. But Dzamn mah dzude dzzzamn she was my only straightedge friend… Now I’m alone again.

Chris

Met a guy named at the club the other night. I was with my girls vibing and he walked up to me and struck up a conversation. Then asked me flat out if i wanted to be his girlfriend. Of course i said no but i thought it was hilarious because an hour later he didn’t even remember my name after clearly telling me his sisters name was Jasmine. Anyways my girls and i left the club and he decided he was going to follow. It was really cold and raining outside and he continually asked what my name was he stopped me and told my friends to continue then he says I’m sorry i don’t remember your name but idk what it is you just really caught my attention. And I’m like oh really even though you can’t remember my name? And he’s like yes and i want you to be my girlfriend. And I’m like you don’t even know me i could be some crazy chick incogno! and I’m just looking at him shivering like negro gtfo of my face im cold and i want to go home -_- and he’s like you have really sweet eyes i can tell you’re a nice girl a good girl with a good heart just by looking at them. You’re different i could tell just looking at you and your friends inside the club. And then he puts his jacket around my shoulders and says he couldn’t end the night without getting my number. Aww fahck after that little speech and gesture i couldn’t turn him down like everyone else that night so i have him my number. re-told him my name and he walked me back to my friends who were grinning like idiots across the street. I gave him his jacket back and my friends and i caught a cab home. But yeah i just wanted to share that little tid bit with you guys about my slow boring love life. Idk about this dude though… I know he’s nice from what we’ve talk about but idk. Abd its not just him. Its any guy i talk to that is interested in me or visa versa. I’m trying to be more vulnerable and not so uptight and controlling about my person but it’s hard. I don’t really know how to relax and go with the few and it scares me. Its one of the many reasons why i am single. I don’t know how to release the tension i have within. I’m not ready to open up to anyone. But anyways this past isn’t about my screwed up head it’s about my meeting with Chris. So good luck Chris on trying to get through my tense conflicted brain and my safely guarded heart. You were right about me being a set nice good girl, but with those traits come a woke bunch of others that aren’t as positive as those.so yeah good luck.